Saturday, December 4, 2010

该怎么说的一天

今天一早惊醒。。。
脑海空白着。。。
楞完了一看,
糟!
睡迟了!!!

居然睡到超过上班时间一个小时=。=
灵机一动,
篇了个谎瞒过去了。。哈哈。。。

一整天带着呵欠。。。
就这样挨到了放工。。。
这时的我,真的很想发个短讯给你。。。

但,
我却让理智在叫着冷静冷静。。。
以为我知道,
你会有压力。。。

回了家,洗个澡,
准备出去跟朋友吃海鲜咯~~~

后悔死。。。

吃那么多。。。


今天下来,
我的确让理智控制住想找你的冲动。。。

但是,

就在半个小时前,
我信息了你。。。

虽然不知道你收到我信息是怎样的心情。。
但是,
我绝对不是要你有压力。。。

我想了又想,
猜了又猜,

你会不会觉得我是假惺惺。。。

就在刚才,
我找到了你以前分手时传给我的那篇文章。。。
我知道那时的话是真心的。。。

我也知道,
你要的快乐就是那么简单。。。

你的健康,
你的朋友,
你的学业,
你的家人,
你的自由,
你的享受。

还有就是,
我不再找你。。。

不知道为什么,

事情已过了一个多月,

我为什么还是那么的执着,
坚持像无赖。。。

以前的我,
换女友像换电话。。。

一点遗憾,一点眷恋,一点怀念,

都没有。。。

自以为能拿得起放得下的我,
能够很潇洒的放开。。。

但事实告诉了我,
我还是眷恋。。。

我觉得是报应吧?

现在终于尝到痛了。。。

掉入自己所设下的陷阱。。。

承受自己所犯下的罪。。


虽然,

我知道你不会再接受我,

虽然,

我知道你不会再爱着我,

虽然,

我知道你不会再联络我,

虽然,

我知道你不会再在乎我,

但是,

我还在坚持。。。

为什么呢??

是因为还爱着而分开吗??

还是我自己的一厢情愿??

有一首歌,
Eason 的 《不如不见》

的确很有道理,
听了很有感触,

越渴望见面然后发现,
中间隔着那十年,
我想见的笑脸,只有怀缅,
不懂,怎样再聊天。。。

像我在往日还未抽烟,
不知你怎么变迁,
似等了一百年,
忽然明白,
即使再见面,
成熟的表演,
不如不见。。。

还是Eason的那首《给你》

不要把我推开

当坚持像无赖
当钻石也变尘埃
我信 你在

唯有寂寞慷慨
骨牌倒了下来
想安慰
找不到对白
那空白

可是我 相信爱
我信异想才有日会天开
可是爱 我相信爱
就算一切都像
独白


耐种种不能忍耐
不怀疑该不该
因为我信 所以你会 存在’



这次真的不知怎么办。。。

忏悔。。。

已太迟。。。




=终=

Friday, December 3, 2010

今天

今天, 在无意间提起了你和我的故事...
就在无意的炫耀我和你的甜蜜和回忆时,
我忘了, 那已是一年多前的事了...

在海滩的第一次接吻,
第一次的拥抱,
第一次的觉得彼此都爱上了...

我们做过的疯狂事...
我们做过的傻事....

说着说着...
我的眼,仿佛承载不了一滴泪的重量...

唯有微笑着离开,
流着泪, 头也不回,
开车上班...

我发誓不再掉泪,
但我知道...
我办不到...
带着墨镜隐藏着哭红的眼,
也隐藏不了内心的伤悲...

一路回想着为什么昔日相爱的两个人如今会弄得如此地步....
是我不够好吧?
还是报应?
还是。。。逼不得已??

以忙碌取代伤心的我,的确把伤心压抑住了...
但那只是十个小时的短暂失忆...

十个小时后,
我也发生了一件可能一辈子都有遗憾的一件事。。。
幸好,他没事。。。
而差点也没命的我,
也幸好活了下来。。。

人,
总到最需要帮忙和关怀的时候,
才会看清很多事情。。。

你冷漠的回答,
让我的心,
再次裂开。。。

虽然我们已没有关系,

但,


真的连爱和关心都没了吗???

真的一点都不剩了吗??

虽然我们的感情已破裂。。。
但是,
这是我的生命。。。

也许会在医院住个十年八年。。。
也或是永远再见。。。

你,
居然一个问候,
一个紧张也不给。。。
是太理智了吗??

还是怀疑我在博同情??

猜不透。。。

我的心也。。。



我,

在你心中也没有一席之地了吗?

‘我不想和你信息’
‘我不想和你讲电话’

在我脑海盘旋。。。

是你太冷静了吗??

还是,

如我相信的那样,

你在装不在乎??

答案,

只有你知道。。。

也只有你能告诉我。。。



=终=

Thursday, November 25, 2010

One yEar and Three Days' Love Journey

One yEar and Three Days...
AND it would be a short journey, if i'm still walk along and get through this journey v my beloved....
buT now, its seEmed i've gEt through a lOng joUrneY after we end uP thiS oNe yEar anD tHreE dayS' lOve JournEY....

During this JournEY, we've been through a lot of happy n unhappy...
wE had foUnded diamondS n we haD foundEd crap stones tOo...
diAmonds, foR HapPinesS...
CraP stOnE, foR the sAdnesS...

wE botH touT tAt wE caN found DiamondS all de Way...
wE tout taT theRe is more N bigGer DiamondS aT de othEr side oF de hiLls...

But,
hEres de storY goin....
ThEre is nOt suCh easy To fInd a BiggeR diaMonds iN thIS jOurney...
wE founD a lOt of BiG dIamonds At tHe stArting PoiNt aNd itS doesn't Means taT wE caN fouNd thE diamondS alL dE waY Till thE EndIng poInt!!

ThiS iS tHE tRuth anD tHe RealiTy....
TherE iS nO trUely haPpy eNdinG's LovE sTory wiTh reaLly nO CrueL aNd uNhapPy...

tHinK bY coMMon senceS...
WoulD a MinE taT fulL of DiamondS n neveR beeN FulLy diggeD fOrevEr beinG eXisted???
TherE iS nO sUcH ridiCulous ThinGS iN tHis WorlD!!
eSpeciAllY a CruEL aND rEalitY worlD Of EarTH!!

nOW, bAck tO thE StorY....
aT thE beGinIng,
wE sAw a LoT oF DiamOnds GlittEriNG oN tHis rOAd oF tHIs JOurneY...
aNd at tHE saME time wE dO havE a loT oF optioN...
a LoT oF rOad tO bE tAken WiTH a LoT oF difFeREnt PartneR...
anD sHE iS goING tO beGin witH anOther gUY oN a RoaD wHich FulL oF cRap sTonE On tAt tIMe....
bUT,
ShE cHooseD tO gO v Me...
bEgaN ouR adventurE wHich fulL oF sHinnY dIAmonds oN tHE roAD oF beGininGs....

YeS,
aT The BeginiNGs wE dO founDed a Lot oF hugE n ShiniNg DiamondS...
bUt wE meT a Lot oF hiLls AnD sTreams tOo....
SomEs iS veRy dAngerouS...
BuT wE alwayS smile anD feEL sO haPPy whEn wE get trOughed all thosE hIlls And StrEamS...
We FounD a BiG dIAmondS evErytImes wE got ThrougH dE tEst...

AftER 11 Months...
wE're Goin tO geT thRough a ReaLLy hUge'S hiLl...
wE toOK A long tImEs to gEt over iT....
We boTH tOut taT tHere's a HugE diAmonDS EvER awaITs foR us bEhiND thE hillS...
BUT!
We fOunD a MosT bIg n uNwantEd cRap sTOne eVer BehIND tHis biG biG hiLL....
fOR goD saKE...
wE sMIled tO eaCH othER....
We tolD eAch otheR taT wE cAN foUND aNotHER BiG biG diaMOnds aGAin...
As lOng aS wE don't giVE up...

AnD hErE We aRE!!!
AfTer a Month oF roUGh jOurney,
We'vE rEached iN fRont oF a bIGgeST n A hIGhESt hiLL we evER Met....
HerE'S sHould B a ClimaX of THe StorY......
A bIggEst aND highesT HiLL evER...
Its ShoulD bE a LegeNDary huGE aND shINing dIAmond bEhind It!!!

'ThiS will Be waT The rEader ThinkiNG iN minD wHEn saW thiS paRT..."
aND I tHiNK alL oF tHE reAder shouLD hAve thesE twO iDEaS AbouT The Ending OF de Story...
>>>"They must found a huge diamonds behind the hill and have a wonderfull journey!"
OR
>>>"They must found no diamonds but only crap stone behind the hill and disappointed!"

buT ...

itS noT....


ThiS iS hoW ThE StoRy eND uP...
>>>>
We bOth toO ScaRed tO bE diSappoInted anD BotH oF uS felT toO tirED aFter wE fouND a

CrapPY StonE aFter The biG hilL tHat wE'vE clIMb sO hArd bEfoRE tHiS...

AnD wE hAve fOund No diAMonds anymorE bUt tHose liTTle CrappY StonEs oN tHe waY wE

cAme tO ThIs BigGEst anD hiGHest Hill!!!

sO sHE dEcidEd tO tAke tHe roaD noT takeN....

anD i'M sTandinG all alONE right iNFront ThE hILL anD tHiNK: "sHoulD i Wait hEre fOr hER

to CoME bAck aND climb 2getheR??"

wE doN't eVen nOE whAt's HidiNg BehInd dE hIll....

And tHE tiMEs passINg tHrough...

Its bEEn One Month and 2 Days im sTanding iN frONT tHE hILL...

But She neveR ComeS back aNymore...

pErhaps i Should Juz Start A nEW jOUrney WitH mY aNotheR sOul mAte...


mAyb sHE hAd FoundED a bRand nEW jOurney WitH fUll oF diAmonds...


AnD i Shall nEver LooK bAck oN tHE preVious jOurney...

As HoW i'vE Done iN maNY jOURney bEForE thIS....

tHIS sHOuld nOT bE mY lAst JournEY....

i sHoulD tAke tHE rOAd noT taken tOO...

As wHat shE decidED...

EvEN hOW cuRious i aM about Whats HidiNG bEhinD dE Hill....


BuT tHis iS tHe fAct.....


The Journey Ends Up In 368 Days,Began On 20th October Of 2009 And Ended On 23rd October Of 2010.













=THE END=